You leave me SPEECHLESS.,

Im totally obsessed with my weight now...

im like gaining what i lost during the holidays cos i really don't have time to exercise :( i feel like total shit cos my body is like aching for a run and now i feel so unfit and like i used to be able to run for at least 45 mins and last tuesday's PE, i was panting after a 700m run. OMG i hate my body... i can never remain fit for long! UNFAIR!

I've decided that instead of fretting over this crap. I'm going to blog about what are my plans :p
LOSE WEIGHT and RUN FASTER!

Based on my height and weight:

BMR:1367.44cal

Including light activitites: 1880 cal* no more half a cadbury block indulgence yo.*

in order to lose weight, i can either run 35o0 cals away or minus 500 off my daily cal intake... no points for guessing which i'd choose most of the time.
-I LOVE SIMPLE MATHS-

THINGS THAT'll KEEP ME GOING:)

I wanna eat all the nice food still so i have to run more *common sense

and I wanna go for a marathon when i get fitter and can actually run 42km O.O

HUIYU LOVES RUNNING AT NIGHT ADIDAS SUNDOWN HERE I COME. lol.

actually, if i can finish a marathon... i think i'd be happy enough.lol

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Now that the weight part is over, i've gotta see my studies part as well.

1. THIS IS AN IMPORTANT YEAR... I CAN'T SCREW UP!!

2. I WILL NOT PROCRASTINATE MY STUDYING

3. I WILL STUDY REGULARLY AND DO ALL MY HW

4. I WILL STOP WATCHING DRAMA SERIALS THAT IS DEGENERATING MY BRAIN

5. I WILL KNOCK INTO STUFF LESS TO PRESERVE WHATEVER BRAINCELLS I HAVE LEFT

6. I WILL PAY ATTENTION IN THE MOST BORING OF ALL LECTURES

7. I WILL LOVE MATHS AND ECONS EVEN THOUGH I CANT UNDERSTAND IT!

ive already wasted one year...i cnt dissapoint my parents again. Not after what they've done and given to me...

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

5:37 PM

Yona Wallach

Tefillin- Yona Wallach

Come to me Let me do nothing
You do it for me
Do everything for me
Everything I start to do
You do instead
I will lay tefillin I’ll pray
You lay the tefillin for me
Bind them on my arms
Play with them inside me
Pass them delicately over my body
Rub them against me
Arouse me everywhere
Make me faint with sensations
Run them across my clitoris
Tie up my hips with them
So I can come quickly
Play with them inside me
Tie up my hands and legs
Do things to me
Against my will
Turn me over on my stomach
Put the tefillin in my mouth a bridle bit
Ride me I am a mare
Pull my head back
Until I shriek with pain
And you are pleasured
Later I will pass them over your body
With unconcealed intention
Oh, how cruel my face will be
I will pass them slowly over your body
Slowly slowly slowly
Around your throat I’ll pass them
I will wind one end a few times around your throat
And tie the other to something stable
Something very heavy perhaps rotating
I’ll pull and I’ll pull
Until your last breath escapes
Until I strangle you
Completely with the tefillin

STRAWBERRIES- Yona Wallach

When you come to sleep with me
wear a black dress printed with strawberries
and a black wide-brimmed hat decorated with strawberries
and hold a basket of strawberries
and sell me strawberries
tell me in a sweet high voice
strawberries strawberries
who wants strawberries
don’t wear anything underneath the dress later
strings will lift you up invisible or visible
and lower you directly on my prick.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

5:28 AM

On the poem

Read the poem? How is it? Shocking? lol. Don't be too appalled!! I'm not perverted and neither is the teacher that showed it to us during lit lesson today:)

At first glance, the starkness and vulgar of the words chosen had kinda scared me and made me blush(a lil). But Mr Sas encouraged us to read it none the less ( and made 2 poor boys read it out * lol * for good fun) , and the surprising thing is that once you have gotten past the vulgarity of the words used, you'd realise that actually, this poem means alot to us( the female population). All of a sudden, the poem wasn't about sex anymore, it was about male oppression. The topic wasn't about sexuality but about male pornography and the use of females as mere sex objects. And Althea's first reaction to it (" Mr Sas, why is the poet so horny?") cannot be further from the truth.

Wallach is actually an israel femenist, and a pretty good one at that. Mr Sas told us his reason for picking the poem was because the poet actually accomplished her motive of telling people about the shocking plight of women using phallocentric terms. The more i begin to understand it, the more i'm drawn to the poem.

I think taking literature this year was the smartest thing i've done:) I truly love the subject! I love that there is no fixed answer. I love that there are so many types of poems. I love the thought put into choosing each word carefully. I love that each line conveys so much more than what it states.

I kinda think that this year is going well for me:) the clouds have cleared and now i'm super motivated to STUDY for my promos! Lit and Econs included=))

Aja Aja! Fighting!

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

5:09 AM

why going for an exam is like going on a date

WHY I THINK GOING FOR AN EXAM IS LIKE GOING ON A DATE=)

have you ever gone for a/an _____? Not knowing any thing about the _____, not knowing what ____likes? You have no idea what the _____ entails, no idea what your _____ is about. Like everything else you just leave it to chance, " Que sera sera" you say. Whatever will be, will be. As you step into the **_____, you see your _____ at the table, beckoning you over. As you walk over to the table, beads of perspiration begin forming on you forehead, your already clammy hands are getting wetter by the minute, fear grips at your heart and refuses to let go. Questions like " What am i doing here?", " I should have paid more attention to details." and " What if it doesn't work out?" flies through your mind like a bullet train. But its too late to turn back now...too late.

*Now, please substitute in the spaces either with (date/exam)
**for this, please fill in either (restaurant/exam hall)

This is why going for an exam is like going on a date. The feelings are the same to begin with. I admit, I have failed as a lover to my exams hence im in a rut having to repeat the date once more, hoping that i can finally promote to a full time reletionship status. But its ok, we always do it better the second time round ehs?=)) Now Ive got a change in mindset and i have decided to woo my exams harder to make sure i can make it so wish me luck dears! Ive got 4 more weeks to go!

STEPS TO TAKE

1#- I got to love it for what it is

Instead of hoping that my exams will change its style to suit my writing style, i shall suit my writing stylt to my exam's requirements instead. If its short and succint it wants (like econs) than so be it! And if i love my exams, it'll love me back too=))

2#- I need to know my exam in detail

I remember a chinese saying from last year. Direct translation: You've got to touch it to its bottom. LOL. Im not a pervert, its highly unlikely that i'll get turned on by examinations. But what its trying to say is that, you've gotta know your exam really really really well! And so i will TRY!

3#- Plan it out

I will not leave things to fate like last year anymore! I will study hard for what i want. I will plan my steps up till the day of my exams and i will keep to my steps. I will not be lazy anymore!!! lol im tired of being a slacker and now its time to give my cramped body a stretch and start moving. GO GO GO!!

4#- I will appear

Lol, though it has never happened to be before( and i hope it never does) I shall do my best to not be sick and appear for my exams!!

Ok now that im revitalized, IM OFF TO STUDY STUDY STUDY!

I love going on dates >.O

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

3:39 AM

Making Friends or making out?

I happen to chance upon a Forum article on Mr Brown's site entitled " Making friends or Making out? ". It was a letter written in by a concerned Aunt as her nieces and nephews had told her of the improper activities conducted during their University orientation in 2 different Universities in Singapore( may i mention that these activities are backed by the Social Development Unit?). And she mentioned games like getting guys to exchange sweets with female students as they sat in a circle and also things like getting a female to lie on the floor as a male student did push ups on top of her. ( *hello hot blooded male friends who read my blog, i know u guys very very well. my guess is that you are probably grinning with anticipation for your uni entrance in like 2-3 years time right? lol * )

But seriously...YUCKS! Not only is this not cool, its also not funny and very very very demeaning for the students. Apparently, one of the games was that girls was asked to pick guys they wished to pair up with and hence subjecting the less attractive girls to ridicule as the guys who were picked groaned and lamented to their friends about this undesirable pairing. Whatever, like the girls have any choice as well. And apparently, you also get labelled as " square" if you do not join in. Peer pressure much anyone?

I suppose an ageing population is rather undesirable but seriously, this is NOT the way to go about increasing our birth rate. On the ST forum site, some women suggested that if they wanted an increased birth rate so badly, they should just lock em up and make them watch porn instead. LOL. More effective. Too bad the government banned orgies though, if not i think the SDU might actually take this suggestion more seriously=)

But seriously, increased fornication does not equate to a better future for Singapore. So what if the birth rates increased, you might actually find yourselves with the problem of unwanted babies or a new generation that have seriously mental problems due to parental neglect. Ok i may be exaggerating but it is possible. The elders already lament that this generation of youths are a bunch of spoilt brats. Can you imagine the effect of 2 spoilt brats copulating and end up with an unplanned child whom they can't be bothered with cos they are self centred:) What a bright future we have.

Not only is this about Singapore but for the individual as well. How would you like if you knew that your boyfriend was out kissing some other girl " for fun " or if your girlfriend was found beneath another guy in a position that will make one blush even if both are fuly clothe? Not funny already right? And for those that are looking for potential partners, is this the way you wanna find them? *P.S dun mind my language=) *

Speaking from the perception of a close minded girlfriend, i swear i'll go up and punch that retarded girl that came into contact with my bf then i'll slap my bf for going on with it. Peer pressure MY ARSE LOL. There's something called morals and i think i see your's flying out the window:)*there it goes "bye bye..." * lol.

But i suppose its ultimately the organising comittee's fault. Its a university for god's sake, the people there can't be that much of a dimwitt can they? Its amazing that there are probably a whole group of them preparing the orientation program and none of them have the guts to voice their displeasure of these stuff. TSK TSK

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

4:51 AM

Whining on and off about people i see

Ok, i get that i'm supposed to be studying for an econs test tomorrow ( a subject which i seem to do badly in all the time...*gee i wonder why* ) owells. How much can i stuff into my brain ehs?

Let me get this straight... the notes stated that there are 4 types market structure: Oligopoly, Monopoly, Perfect Competition and Monopolistic Competition. And of the 4 choices we have, none are perfect:) great... The basic thing i got from my notes are that either we get screwed by a single big money spinner or we get screwed by a thousand small firms. Either ways, it aint working out for us.

The only monopoly that i can think of as the best example is none other then Microsoft. Which is, ironically, the program EVERY SINGAPOREAN teacher use to type out our wonderful notes, teaching us about the demerits of a Monopoly whilst patronising one themselves * talk about irony*. Well, im not a complainer:( after all i'd positively die without Microsoft word and Powerpoint and all the other wonderful crap that comes with my MICROSOFT STUDENT PACKAGE. All im saying is that i wish it wasn't so bloody expensive. I mean... if like half the world buys it from you, you could have the decency to charge us a little cheaper? And if Mr Bill Gates is earning more then he can spend( making supernormal profit like nobody's business), is'nt it and indication of over charging? If we live in an ideal world, a monopoly like Microsoft can benefit socially if they actually passed on their savings, from enjoying Economies of Scale, to us mere slaves to their great addictive power. But alas, such a world do not exist and we wake up to the smell of reality and all its profit driven people.

Fret not dears:) if 1 firm has too great a power, maybe the next might entice you. How about having many many many firms. Welcome to the world of Perfect Competion( even though it doesn't exist in our world noe...much )*taaadaaa*. In this world, the market is shared by so many firms that you'd much rather count the hairs on your head. They all sell similar goods and in the end, they will only earn NORMAL PROFIT due to its high competitiveness. Due to its small size, they are price takers and have freedom of entry and exit even. But Don't be too happy...apparently...it is possible for a market to be able to achieve allocative and productive efficiency and not be perfect as well. Apparently, the lack of EOS is a cause of worry cos this means a lack of cost savings and that the consumers aka US have to pay a higher price for it. Drats. But as the name suggests, this is probably the closest we'll get to a PERFECT market:)

Ok, so too little is no good and too many is not good either. Why not just have a few? Well dears, let me introduce to you Mr. OLIGOPOLY who is actually just a few large firms dominating the market. The kinky demand curved sire seldom vary his prices unless costs change significantly. Due to him having a few GREAT competition, price competition has to be avoided at all costs cos in the end, the casualty can only be him. So instead, he makes use of his powers to try to trick people into thinking that he is different from the rest out there and doing his best to prevent new sires from entering the market. And if more competition threatens... a cartel is all but garanteed ( as they say, there is only a fine line separating friend and enemies alike. )

And lastly, the wonders of MONOPOLISTIC COMPETITION... the surreal like market where differences in products can be real or IMAGINED. Cool... NORTS. Although its great cos supposingly it reduces other firm's incentive to rip us off yet allowing each firm some sort of false power in making pricing decisions. Also, these differentiated products means that WE have got a choice, relatively lower prices, closer substitutes and creates more jobs in the advertising and product development!!! now isn't that wonderful??? NOOO obviously not cos this market is not only allocative and productive inefficient, but also causes the company to waste money through advertising and wastage of resources.

Whoever said that studying was fun. This has been quite a depressing thing study about how people behind big mahogany desks on the top floor of an office building have been growing fat ripping us off till they die of choronic heart diseases. Owells... life sucks eitherways:)

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

6:40 AM

sha's bdae

YOOhoo! though sha's bdae is tmr but we celebrated it for her on saturday!

Treated her to lunch at Ms Clarity Cafe at purvis street. I decided on there cos i heard that the food there was value for money and good. But they lie!!! lol apparently, of all the things the 5 of us ordered, lucky moi got the best, some chicken leg thingy with potatoes. I thought esmonde's lamb ravioli was nice but both chye and he can't appreciate it poor poor ppl.lol. But i thought that the dessert more than made up for it=) I loved the Banantine, Mud Ooze and Warm Bread and Butter Pudding and the Blueberry Pie had great crust! yummy yummy yummy lol.

After that, we were thinking of how to get abby her Super Bdae Pressie when she was around and apparently, i was too dumb to catch Es' hint when he suggested we split up to look for a toy store at Raffles place cos i was like " split up for what? got only one toy store mah..." n she shot me a grave look n i was like, OH SHIT lol. But in the end, me and chye used going to toilet as an excuse and separated from the group. Personally, i thought it was an exteremely lame excuse( Why would a girl n guy go toilet together?) but owells, the bdae girl bought it anyway=) haha LOSER! lol. We then hurried down to Basement and got her 5 cakes from Canele which totalled up to $40 gasp! but looked like it was worth every cent. Then gave said that i had to help my mum for something and left before them. We later met at esmonde's house where we thought abby how to play mahjong and read 1-10 in chinese lol. Smart girl memorised the characters and even managed to win 2 rounds woo! lol.

Using buying dinner(another lame excuse) to get out of es house, we went over to my hse and set up the bdae pressie and donut cake to celebrate her surprise bdae SONG! When she walked into my house, she was faced with darkness and slowly, she inched towards my room and the door creaked open with tortise pace the glow for the candles on the donut and tealight candles surrounding it caught her unaware...From her open stare and equally open mouth she said...OH....MY...GAWD...to which esmonde broke out into and eerie tune( that was out of tune cos it was in the dark) and then switched to a happier ( but still out of tune) rendition of the Happy Birthday song which mse, chye and i had no idea how to sing to. So we ended up in some kinda howl and random speed up and slowdown of our singing to suit Es.

It was quite fun cos we were all invovled in a highly secretive mission to finish M_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _. lol. HAPPY BDAE ABBY IN ADVANCE!!!

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

5:25 AM